Wednesday, February 25, 2009

The Surreal Life

I spent the last two days in Duluth, MN, a small city that sits on Lake Superior 2 1/2 hours North of the cities.

The challenge with Duluth is the restaurant selection. There are no Panera Breads, no Chipoltes, no Starbucks, no organic grocery stores in existence in Duluth. Food options are limited to: Applebee's, Perkin's, Old Country Buffet, and The Great American Grill... a lil Wendy's and Burger King..... ick.

As I have said before, traveling is not always glamorous. In fact, here are some of the things I was exposed to within my 2-day trip to Duluth:
  • a girl blow drying her hair with a hand dryer in the restroom of a gas station. she was literally flipped upside down with her head under the hair dryer. (i must add that the gas station was located in no-man's land minnesota)
  • toilets filled with yellow water. no, not pee-pee. YELLOW water.
  • in a room full of 20 chicks, at least 10 of them were wearing white sweat socks with black pants and black shoes.
  • a lack of food that was raw & fresh. a lack of Naked Juice. ok, absolutely NO FRESH RAW FOOD.
While on the road, I had some time to reflect on the last 6 months of my life. I have spent 5-6 months filled with anxiety, disappointment, & dissatisfaction. I have been back-stabbed, & I have been the subject of people's laughing matter. I have not been supported, and have been ignored. I have not been encouraged to follow my dreams, but instead led down a different path.

A glimpse of what I have experienced:

....my coworkers- the ones that I work closely with... all happen to be women. Women that THRIVE on gossip....

....my job could often times be compared to a bad joke....

....i spent the last two days driving to Iowa* and driving back home from Iowa. in a snow blizzard....

.....I want to be happy. I want to feel excitement. Instead, I am often reminded of the disappointment I am causing others to feel......

......my work life becomes more and more unpleasant every day. i am on the verge of tears more often than not these days.....

....I just told my boss that I do not feel she is supportive of me.....

....accused of being appointed this job that i have been interviewing for since october....


Tomorrow marks the last day in this chapter of my life. Tomorrow is my last day with my current job. Tomorrow is the last day I will work in the state of Minnesota. Tomorrow is the last day that I work for people that do not support me living out my dreams.

Saturday marks the first day of the new chapter of my life. Saturday marks a new beginning . On Saturday, I fly to Tampa and I will not come back to Minnesota until March 18th. I will come back to a condo filled with boxes.... my life packed in those few boxes.... all ready to make a move. A move that will fulfill one of my dreams.

Now, time to focus on that Cruise................

Those who risk, win.

xox ♥Happy Me.

6 comments:

Jane said...

I lived in Grand Marais for two years. There was a health food store there, but oh my...it was like living in some sort of Twilight Zone. I've tried to write the story a thousand times, but it's too unbelievable, even as fiction.

I live outside Mpls., now but have never felt at home in Minnesota. It's a strange place. The fraud of "Minnesota Nice" with a coating of frosty reserve. I hear ya on the job front, sister. I hope your next venture takes the weight off your shoulders and gives you some peace and the freedom to create.

Margarita said...

I'm all for finding the 'happy self'. I too read the Skinny Bitch books, and decided to start making a change. For the past year I've decided to do anything that made me happy, like quitting my job when I realised it was more of a detriment to my life than anything else. Good luck, you will succeed.

Ellegant said...

GOOD for you! Best of luck in your new journey. And you are so right - you need risks in order to keep climbing. How inspiring :)!

Amanda said...

Props to you on making a change. It's never easy.

Miss Sparkles said...

Oh my gowsh! Follow your dreams, always follow your dreams - very few people have the courage to! "Our lives are defined by opportunities, even the ones we've missed." Good luck and lots of sparkles!

Bird* said...

Jane - Where is Minneapolis?!?! It has never felt like home to me either.....

Margarita - are you LOVING Skinny Bitch?!?! Best Book EVER.

ALL- thanks :) :)