Saturday, February 21, 2009

life is precious.

my best friend has a son who is suffering from severe anxiety, depression, and addiction to Rx drugs. my heart dropped and my stomach turned when i heard the news today. his son made the decision to purchase a gun. a glock. we got word through a friend of his.........

Depression is a medical illness that involves the mind and body. It affects how you think and behave and can cause a variety of emotional and physical problems. You may not be able to go about your usual daily activities, and depression may make you feel as if life just isn't worth living anymore.

Addiction is a primary, progressive, chronic disease with genetic, psychosocial, and environmental factors influencing its development and manifestations. The disease is often progressive and fatal. It is characterized by impaired control over use of the substance, preoccupation with the substance, use of the substance despite adverse consequences, and distortions in thinking.

my brother carries a gun daily.... every where he goes. it makes me nervous to be in the same room with him. there is no comfort in sleeping in the same house as him. i worry that he will loose his temper in an argument and pull his gun on someone. i worry that something will happen on accident.

until now, i never worried about my brother using his own gun to shoot himself.... but he currently has a shitty job, can't pay his bills, car reposessed, has no vision of the future..............

during my high school years, i dated a guy that chose to shoot himself with his best friends gun..... in front of all of his friends. he had an alcohol problem and quite possibly, suffered from depression. no one saw it coming...... in fact, his closest friends still call it an "accident" ... "he wouldn't do that to us," they say.

within the last year or two, i have come in to contact with so many people that have been through "the program." due to the fact that the salon owner at the salon i work in is a recovering addict, recovering addicts are prevalent guests of the salon. after 6-7-8 years of being sober, these people still attend meetings every week. these people are happy. the salon is a safe and positive place. they are recognized as being recovered and encouraged to continue moving forward in a positive direction.

personally, i have never had an addiction to anything. i have never suffered from depression. at the most, minor anxiety. i do not understand. i can not relate.

i am sick. my stomach is in knots. i need to know that everything is going to be ok.

7 comments:

J.R. LeMar said...

I hate guns. I wouldn't want to be around someone, who's not a policeman or soldier, who's always carrying on, either. And I've stayed away from drugs, even "soft" stuff like pot, and didn't have my first drink of alcohol until I was 30, because I've always been afraid of getting addicted to something.

I hope your brother, and son's friend, get help and turn out okay.

Bird* said...

thanks J R .... high hopes ....

Cheryl said...

I'm sorry about your brother. Really really sorry.

That's a terrible situation for you to be in.

AndreaLeigh said...

this is so sad. my uncle committed suicide... i am not a fan of guns.

insomniaclolita said...

I'm sorry for what happened to you, your ex and your brother now. :(

I hate guns beyond anything.

Greg said...

I have nothing against guns, but it sounds like these specific individuals are at risk and could benefit from counseling. Addictions, depression and access to weapons is a dangerous cocktail. I wish you the best of luck!

Muppet Soul said...

I have nothing against guns, really ( my Father was a government agent and was strapped at the grocery store) I just have a serious problem with how many people they allow to have them.

Addictions are really a disease.. If people thought about them more like having diabetes... As in, a disease that can kill you if you want it to, or that you can completely live with functionally, if you want to.. The whole issue would be taken more seriously, I think.